People that know me, know that I rarely, if ever, watch television. I have been glued to it this week. It started with a movie that I watched. “Pay It Forward” is an absolutely awesome movie. It made me laugh, made me cry, made me think. I thought about it on one level, then turned the picture around and viewed on it on another level. I didn’t care much for level two, so I went back to level one.

The premise of the movie is that if someone has done a good deed for/to you, pass it on, do something great for someone else. Not paying back the good deed, but to pick three people and do something for them that they couldn’t accomplish on their own. Make a real and lasting difference in their lives. It’s part of the whole karmic realm. By paying it forward, it will come back to you, in the most unexpected ways.

I wrote many months ago about a friendship of mine, that I needed to heal. No one else could do it. It was totally up to me. It was one of the most humbling things I have ever experienced. It has been wonderful. I am so grateful to have my friend back. Those few mouthfuls of crow was certainly worth it. I only wish I had done it sooner. But all things in their own time.

When my precious and adorable buddy Stinky Vixen was in the hospital, I had an opportunity to talk to her equally precious daughter, Angelica Vixen. Angelica had the unfortunate circumstance to have to relay a very distressing message to me. She was very close to my pups, and because of these circumstances, she thought my pups were upset with her, and they thought she was upset with them. Nothing could have been further from the truth.

Before I left that night, I told sweet Angelica Vixen that I would like to have lunch with her, to discuss something. She said she would like that. Not long after I got home, she stopped by my house to see when I would like to do this. I had to laugh. I know she was a little on the worried side, as to what I had to say. So, I said, “Why don’t we just talk now, so you don’t have to worry about it.” So we did.

I thanked her for having the courage to take a hard stand. She made a real difference in my pups lives. I, and they, would love her and be grateful to her for the rest of our lives. You could visibly see the relief wash over her. She said she had wanted to talk to them, but she was afraid they hated her. I told her, they had wanted to talk to her as well, but were afraid of the same thing. It was a simple misunderstanding. The love, and the friendships that had been developed over the years were stronger than the circumstances that they had come up against.

Once that door was open, the warmth, the love, the friendship was able to flow freely again. Listening to them speak to each other, you could hear the relief and the eagerness, to pick up that golden thread of love and let it continue to weave its magic. It’s really quite easy to mend a true friendship. If it’s real, it can’t be broken, by anything. Misunderstandings, disagreements, distance, time, mean nothing. The real deal may hibernate, but it cannot die, not by natural or unnatural causes. It is always waiting, to pick up that thread.

I had one more friendship, that was on hiatus. This one really bothered me. Mostly because, I didn’t have a clue as to what sent it south. A week of so after I talked to Angelica, another dear vixenly friend of mine came to me, concerning this very thing. She said she had noticed it, and it really bothered her, because she knew how close we had been. She said she didn’t want or need details, but couldn’t it be patched up? I told her, I honestly had no clue what happened. She came back later and relayed that when she had talked to Him, He didn’t know either. He thought I was upset with Him. Well crap. That’s no good. It would be one thing, if one us knew what the major malfunction was. Since neither one seemed to, I reckon there never was one to begin with. That thought sucked.

Finally when we talked, I could see how circumstances caused the misunderstanding. And that’s all it was, a misunderstanding. I told Him, that He is probably the only person I know on the face of the planet, that I am truly intimidated by. The look on His face was comical. It was that, “You have GOT to be kidding” look. You know, raised brow, the whole nine yards. I said, “You know, anyone else (if I cared that is) I would have been all like, now hey, what seems to be the problem here?” But with Him, I just couldn’t.

And really, it is one of those irrational things. He’s always been a wonderful friend. He is an awesome Guy. Ok, He’s a Fox. What can I say, I’m lucky to be able to count Him as a Friend. I am grateful to His very lovely Lady for setting the record straight with us. And if by some chance, in the future, that Foxy Guy and Lady Vixen get hitched, I still wanna be His Best Man. They really are THAT special!

Pay it forward. What a concept who’s time has come. We may not be able to “pay it forward” on a global scale, but then again, you never know who you are touching when you reach you out a helping hand.

Pay it forward. What do you have lose? Nothing. If it isn’t accepted, at least you tried. Even as jaded and cynical as I am, I still believe in the ideal. It’s called hope. Pay it forward, and see what comes back to you.

Til next time... sassy v

© sassy vixen1 2005

Make You Feel My Love ~ Garth Brooks
When the rain is blowing in your face
And the whole world is on your case
I could offer you a warm embrace
To make you feel my love
When the evening shadows and the stars appear
And there is no one there to dry your tears
I could hold you for a million years
To make you feel my love
I know you haven't made your mind up yet
But I would never do you wrong
I've known it from the moment that we met
No doubt in my mind where you belong
I'd go hungry I'd go black and blue
I'd go crawling down the avenue
There's nothing that I wouldn't do
To make you feel my love
The storms are raging on the rollin' sea
And on the highway of regret
The winds of change are blowing wild and free
You ain't seen nothing like me yet
I could make you happy make your dreams come true
Nothing that I wouldn't do
Go to the ends of the earth for you
To make you feel my love